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(no subject) [Jun. 8th, 2008|10:09 pm]
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[Current Location |Mom & Dad's]
[Current Mood | torn]
[Current Music |Tegan and Sara - Not Tonight]

I've been home for the weekend for Courtney's 21st birthday and to just catch up with everyone. I head back tomorrow and part of me really wishes I didn't have to.

I got home Friday and spent much of the evening hanging out at the Relay for Life, which my mom worked on (again) this year. I had to make cookies for them to sell at the food booth and then I spent some time over there helping out and babysitting okay, attempting to kidnap my friend Jennifer's son Danny who is seven months old now. He's wicked cute:)

Saturday I went out to Courtney's for her party and hung out with her family, Alyssa and Josh, and Courtney's boyfriend Ryan for most of the night. We had a blast and it really made me wish I got to spend more time with them this summer, especially since Courtney, Ryan, and I graduate next May and I'll probably be heading off in a totally different direction from them, which sucks.

Today was wicked hot (even hotter than yesterday, I think), so Mom and Dad and I headed up to Eastview because none of us really have shorts to wear, and I picked up three new pairs of shorts/capris, which is nice because I seriously have, like, one pair of shorts. And that's it. Then we got home and headed out on the lake to meet up with some of the guys from my dad's softball team and ended up over at the Switz with a couple of younger guys (all about my age or a couple of years older) who play with him, which was interesting and really actually kind of fun.

I'm meeting Jenn for breakfast tomorrow, and part of me is looking forward to getting home after that and sleeping in my own bed and having the apartment air conditioned and just being on my own again because I hate coming home and being treated like I haven't changed at all in the three years since I left. But still. I wish I could be here more. I wish I could see my friends and hang out on the lake and just be here all summer. It sucks not being able to.
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(no subject) [Jun. 4th, 2008|11:17 pm]
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[Current Location |my room]
[Current Mood | tired]
[Current Music |Eminem & 50 Cent - 'Till I Collapse]

I started my new classes on Monday. Psych is going really well, but is just . . . well, it's Psychology, and I've taken this class before (if you transfer it, Brockport will only count it as a social science, but I need it to count as a natural science -- ugh!!), so it's kind of boring. The professor is really nice, though, and it could definitely be a lot worse, so we'll see how it goes. Right now a lot of it is review for me -- yesterday we talked about research methodology and doing experiments and between Research Methods and American Public Opinion, a lot of it was stuff I know really well; today we talked about Neuroscience and while it was still review from what I learned the first time I took the course, it's been four years, so it was a little more interesting -- even though I despise science.

Sex and Culture, however, is FABULOUS. I'm actually much more excited for this class than I thought I was going to be -- I actually didn't even mind having to define patriarchy for the 5859595905th time in three years, which is kind of the running joke among Women's Studies majors and minors. Non-majors and minors never know what it means, so we always spend the first few weeks of class reviewing terms like patriarchy, mysogyny, etc., that we all learned in Intro, which most of the other students never took. But luckily my class isn't totally clueless, so we actually moved past a lot of the review stuff during the first class and moved on to the meat of it all and I didn't even mind sitting there for four hours straight. I actually really wish that this was the every day class this session instead of the twice a week class, because I'd much rather go to it than Psych. But, I'll live. And, like I said, Psych could be much worse.

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As for the election, which I'm sure a lot of you know I have strong opinions about . . .

Yes, I'm totally devastated that Hillary Clinton lost. I won't lie about that, since it's absolutely obvious that I am. However, despite the fact that my first choice candidate is out of the race and I've never been a huge supporter of Barack Obama, I am more than willing to drop my grudge and support him, in the interests of NOT having John McCain in the White House, since anything I have against Obama is absolutely nothing compared to the issues I have with McCain. So, I'm dropping it. There are plenty of negative things I could say about Obama (and I'm sure there are just as many negative things that Obama supporters could say against Clinton), but it'd be counter productive to accomplishing the goal of defeating McCain, so I'm not going to. I do, however, wish that everyone else would kind of grow up a little bit and quit being so immature about the whole thing. Hillary lost, yes, and Barack won, okay, but can we please move on? Let's stop with the petty fourth grade bullshit of, "Oh, my candidate lost and I hate yours, so I'm going to vote for McCain!" and "Hahahahahaha, I told you he was going to win! I TOLD YOU!"

Both sides are just really annoying me at this point. Let's move on, and unite as a party, and get this done instead of holding onto grudges. It doesn't matter who you supported yesterday; today you need to support the party, or else we're going to lose. End of story. And this election is way too important to waste such a great opportunity on petty bullshit over which candidate you like more or which candidate is more arrogant and dishonest. Get over it, people: they're politicians, running for President. They're both arrogant and dishonest.

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And with that, I think I'm going to read some more of Animal, Vegetable, Miracle, and then head to bed.  I'm hoping to get back on a relatively normal sleep schedule since waking up at 11am is really throwing everything off, from how tired I am to when I take my medications to normal eating patterns.  So.
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(no subject) [Jun. 2nd, 2008|02:06 am]
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I'm exhausted.  It's 2am.  I have class tomorrow at 1.  I should most likely be sleeping.  But instead, I'm filling out this survey I stole from one of my lovely friends.

-----------• × • A L L | A B O U T | M E • × •--------------

- Name: Lindsay.
- Single or taken: Single.
- Gender: Female.
- Birthday: April 30.
- Sign: Taurus.
- Hair colour: Brown.
- Eye colour: Blue.
- Height: 5'10".

-----------• × • F A S H I O N | S T U F F • × •--------------

- Favourite place to shop for clothes?: Goodwill, Lane Bryant.
- Favourite designer?: Hahahahahaha.
- What is your sexiest outfit?: Again: Hahahahahahaha.
- What is your most comfortable outfit?: Jeans, t-shirt, sneakers, Brockport Hockey hoodie.
- What do you usually wear?: See above.  Some variation of that.  Pretty much every day.

--------------• × • S P E C I F I C S • × • -------------------

- What kind of shampoo do you use?: Aussie.
- What are you listening to right now?: My fan.
- Who is the last person that called you?: Marisa.  She wanted to know if I had a broom.

-------------• × • F A V O U R I T E S • × •-----------------

- Food: Pizza, burgers, bagels, yogurt with fresh raspberries and granola.
- Girls' names: Harriet and Eleanor.
- Boys' names: Thatcher and Silas.
- Subjects in school: Anything taught by Dr. Levy, Anne, or Dr. Davis.  So mostly my English courses with a few Poli Sci thrown in.  Absolute favorite classes ever: Congressional Politics, Advanced Fiction Workshop, and African American Women's Lit.
- Animals: dogs.  Especially mine.

----------------• × • H A V E | Y O U | E V E R • × •-------------

- Given anyone a bath?: Yes.
- Smoked?: Nooooo.
- Bungee jumped?: Uh, no.
- Skinny dipped?: Who hasn't?
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: Yes.
- Pictured your crush naked?: No comment?
- Actually seen your crush naked?: No.
- Cried when someone died?: Uh . . . yeah?  Hahahaha.  Isn't that kind of a given?
- Fallen for your best friend?: Who hasn't?
- Rejected someone?: Yes.
- Used someone?: Yes.  But I felt bad about it and stopped before I actually got what I wanted to begin with.
- Done something you regret?: Yes.

------------• × • C U R R E N T • × •--------------

- Clothes: Jeans, black v-neck t-shirt, socks.
- Desktop picture: This green leaf thing that came with my computer.
- CD in player: None.
- DVD in player: Will and Grace, Season 2, Disc 1.

----------------• × • L A S T | P E R S O N • × •----------------------

- You touched: I think I gave Marisa a high five earlier.
- Hugged: Uhhhhh I think . . . Chloe, on Friday after class.
- You IMed: Either Jill or Amanda.  I can't remember which one I stopped talking to first.
- Talked to online: Same.
- Sexed it up with: Hahahahahahahahaha.

---------------• × • A R E | Y O U • × •---------------------

- Understanding: I try to be.
- Open-minded: Yes.
- Arrogant: Confident, yes.  Arrogant, no.
- Insecure?: Occasionally, about some things.  Usually the things I care about most.
- Random?: Yes.
- Hungry: Not at the moment.
- Smart: Occasionally.
- Moody: Occasionally.
- Organized: Hahahahahahaha.  Hahahahahahahahaha.  Ha!
- Shy: Uh, no.
- Difficult: Very.
- Bored easily: Sometimes, but I always find something to do.
- Obsessed: With some things.
- Angry: Nope.
- Sad: Nope.
- Happy: Mostly.  Content would be a better descriptor.
- Hyper: Not right now.
- Trusting: Depends.

---------• × • W H O | D O | Y O U | W A N N A • × •--------

- Kill?: No one.
- Slap?: I have a pretty decent sized list, but definitely George W. Bush.
- Get really wasted with? No one?  Thanks.
- Get high: Again, no thanks.
- Talk to offline: Sarah.  I haven't talked to her in weeks and I think my signing has started to suck.
- Talk to online: Don't really care that much.
- Sex it up with: Like I'm going to admit that on livejournal?

------------------• × • R A N D O M • × •---------------------

- In the morning I: Want to sleep longer.
- Love is: Complicated, confusing, and not all it's cracked up to be.
- I dream about: really weird shit.  Like Adrienne, Shana, Erin and I going on a camping trip, Shana locking her kids in a safe at the  hotel because she didn't want to sleep on the ground and she didn't want to bring them with her, and then me getting ditched while Shana went to let them out and Erin decided to go chop wood (with Adrienne) and the place I was hanging out in got attacked by monsters.  Like I said: weird shit.
- What do you notice first in the gender you're into: Smile, confidence, friendliness.

---------------• × • W H I C H | I S | B E T T E R • × ---------------

- Coke or Pepsi: Coke.  Pepsi sucks.
- Flowers or candy: Candy.  Flowers are lame.
- Tall or short: Tall.

---------------• × • W H O • × • ---------------

- Makes you laugh the most: A tie between Adrienne, Erin, Shana, Jillie, and Amanda.
- Makes you smile: See above, plus a few more people.
- Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: George Clooney.  No, just kidding.

--------------• × • D O | Y O U | E V E R • × •-----------------

- Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: Uh, no.  LAME.
- Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: Only when I have to pee where there aren't any bathrooms.
- Wish you were younger: Not really.
- Cry because someone said something to you?: Depends on what's said and who said it.

-----------• × • N U M B E R • × •--------------

- Of times I have had my heart broken: Again, not really something I'm going to admit to in a public lj entry.
- Of people you've kissed: Five.
- Of CDs I own: Too many, but I don't know where any of them are.  iTunes says I have 594 albums, but I don't know many are full/partial.
- Of scars on my body: Way too many to know for sure, but . . . two chicken pox scars on my chest/shoulder area, scar from scraping it on the guinea pig cage on my knee, stitches scar on my chin from when I was like one and cut my chin open, right index finger from where I had to have a piece of glass surgically removed, etc.
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Grad school? UGH! [Jun. 1st, 2008|11:44 pm]
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[Current Music |Ani DiFranco - Grey]

I've been freaking out about graduate school lately.  GREs and personal statements and writing samples and letters of recommendation and just . . . UGH!

The plan right now is to go for an MFA in Creative Writing with a concentration in either fiction or creative nonfiction.  I keep going back and forth between them, so I'd like a place that'll allow me to take courses in both, even if I can only concentrate in one or the other.  I want to teach when I'm done (college, not high school), so the opportunity to be a TA is pretty important as well -- not only for the teaching experience, but also for the financial aspect, since there's no way I can afford to take out more loans to pay for grad school.  Ugh.  So it's like . . . free ride or nothing.

I'm just scared, I guess.  Of failing.  Of applying all these places and getting my hopes up and then not getting in, not being able to do this, being stuck here with no clue what I want to do, since it's pretty freaking important to becoming a professor of Creative Writing for me, to, well, be qualified to teach it?

I've been looking at schools tonight and talking to people about the areas.  Right now, here's the "I think probably" list, followed by the "I still need more information" list.  This'll get updated every few weeks (or days, depending on how neurotic I'm being).

Definitely (I think?)
University of Memphis*
University of North Carolina, Wilmington*
University of Texas, Austin*
Ohio State University
University of North Carolina, Greensboro
University of Oregon
University of Washington

Maybe?  Need More Information
Bowling Green State University
Sarah Lawrence College
University of Massachusetts, Amherst
Cornell University
University of San Francisco
University of Pittsburgh

* These are the three I'm currently most excited by the prospect of, which is totally bizarre, since North Carolina, Texas, and Tennessee are probably the last places I ever expected myself to end up.  But.  Maybe.

Tonight, I'm leaning toward Memphis.  I've been reading up on the program and really like the sound of it.  The students they have featured on the website seem like the type of people I'd really get along with.  They'd let me do a graduate certificate in African American Literature while I get my MFA, which is one of the things I'd really like to teach (along with women's literature and LGBT literature), so that definitely helps the fact that it's intriguing me right now.  And although it's far away, my friend Amanda's family is only about two hours away, and her parents are amazing and would totally help me out if I was having an emergency and needed the parental support that I couldn't get from New York.  So.

I wish I could just know, ahead of time, that I was definitely going to get in.  With undergrad, it was so much easier.  I had the grades, I had the SAT scores, so I knew I was pretty much guaranteed a spot; or else, I didn't have the grades or the SAT scores and I was pretty much guaranteed a rejection (or, at best, a wait list) and that seemed to work out exactly how I expected it to.  But this?  There's so much up in the air.  What if I screw up the GREs and don't have time to take them again?  What if my writing sample isn't good enough?  What if they already have someone in their program with my kind of background and my kind of writing style and even if I'm good enough, they want to diversify a bit and get someone who writes more minimalistically, or who focuses more on . . . setting than on characterization and dialog.  Just.  Gah.  These what-ifs are going to be the death of me.

Neurotically Yours,
Lindsay
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Woah. [May. 29th, 2008|08:27 pm]
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I can't believe that my first class of the semester is over tomorrow.  I mean, I know I always complain about semesters lasting too long, but two weeks is a bit ridiculous.  Nice, though.  I didn't even have a chance to get burned out!  Just one more two hour session (Dr. Davis said she's not keeping us after lunch), a five-page paper, and then I'm 1/4 of the way done for the summer!  Woo!  Psych starts Monday, though, and then Tuesday night starts my Sex & Culture class.  It should be interesting, but the next month will be twice as much work/time in class.  Ugh.  I can't wait until my mini two week summer vacation in August;)

Today was actually a lot more fun than the last couple of weeks have been.  I've felt better today than I have since before classes got out (I had walking pneumonia for those who don't know, and felt awful for the last two weeks while I waited for the doctors to figure out what was wrong with me and then for my antibiotics to start working) and got to spend some time hanging out with Janet -- we went to Wendy's during my lunch break, and then she came to class with me this afternoon.  I miss her!!!!  (and everyone else!)

As much as I kind of miss being in Penn Yan right now (it's the first time I haven't spent at least 2-3 weeks at home after the semester ended), I'm glad I'm not.  If I was, I'd probably just be sitting around doing nothing, but here I'm actually forced to leave the apartment for class, grocery shopping, checking the mail, etc.  Even though I miss my friends, and even though I wish I could spend more time with them, I know we probably wouldn't be able to spend that much time hanging out with Jenn working two jobs and Courtney working full-time all summer.  Weekends would be the most I could hope for anyway, and it looks like I'll be home pretty much every two weeks between Courtney's birthday, Jenn's birthday, 4th of July weekend, etc.  And then I'll be able to spend those two weeks in August there after my last class gets out and before I have to be back for Peer Mentoring on the 23rd.

I still need to finish Sula for class tomorrow, and I have a ton of cleaning/organizing to do that I want to finish sometime this weekend, so I better cut this update short.  Anyway, I'm going to try writing in here more because Janet mentioned having a livejournal and I haven't updated this in forever and it'd be nice to have one that everyone can see.  So, if I'm randomly showing up on your friends list after having been MIA for months, that's why.  And I'll probably be updating a little bit more.
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